I'm scared I'll miss the way we used to talk
This is what Nique dedicate to us on her blog entry..

Xavier and Glynis, treat each other good. Love like these are hard to come by. Dont make a mistake and let the one you love go because a moment of confusion or impulse. Things may not be as complicated as it seems to be. It may be a little too off track at this point in time but I am sure you can pick things up and fix it back together. Love was never meant to hurt.

The words in bolded are the ones I agreed the most. Now I'm still crying so badly. I'm going through as a hard time & I really hope it'd blow by real soon. I hope things would come to an end soon. Be it good or bad, as long as it makes her happy, I'm fine.

To my dear friends, all whom called, texted or left a comment worrying for me. I appreciate them. Thanks a lot sweets, y'all made me feel so loved. :) I guess I'll be find pretty soon, I'll be myself again. That cheerful, bubbly me is gonna be back in no time. Some of y'all's concern came as a surprise to me, especially those whom I'm not close to. I don't mean surprise as in like "Oh you do care" kind but that kinda surprise when I go "We aren't close but you care & I appreciate it" :) Thanks a lot y'all.

Qiaos did a lot for me, I supposed. Thanks a lot bestfriend, I appreciate all that you've done. I'm sorry, you've got the most headstrong person alive as a bestfriend. =/ She doesn't listen to your advises, she don't do what's best for her. I really hope you'd still support me in whatever decision I make & you'll still help me whenever I need your help. I love you Qiaos. [:

The same thing that I'd always say whenever I'm down.
I can be a happier girl.
Genuine or Fake?
I don't really know the answer.

Tammy asked me to make more friends & we both agreed that we'd hang out soon :D Heh. Talked to Shijing on the phone just now. She's one that would understand how I felt, perfectly. Well, she went through the same thing as I did few days ago & now she's recovering though the pain isn't subsiding. I cried like fuck & I guess she tried her real best to get me distracted. Ah well, thanks a lot girlie. :) Mainey's so worried about me that she calls me everyday! Haha that silly girl. :) Pert & Qiaos texted me to assure that I'm fine.

I feel so loved.

I thought of it. Loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with them. As long as she is happy, I'll be as happy knowing that she is. Ohwell, I'll be fine in no time. No more "I'm gonna try my best" in the next love. There won't be another next love. I'm afraid already, I supposed. -Shrugs

Afternoon was well-spent. :D Dad, mom & I watched channel 55, Hongkong drama series. Uber nice. Watched till 345pm then I accompanied mom to watch her Korean drama series! Used the come @ around 425! Then they left to go to Meridian Hotel, I think. Cousin's meeting them there. Dad asked if I wanna go & I said no, so I stayed home!

Just had dinner & had a real llllllllong talk with my maid. She's my only companion tonight. I love her please. Managed to eat a little though, like really little. Ugh. Ah I was just thinking of asking who to accompany me tonight. I don't wanna be alone. Sending Shijing songs online now. Nique went offline suddenly, ohhhh. Just finished watching Miss Swan with my maid :D Heh damn funny! I'm like multi-tasking. Shijing say we'll conference tonight! With Tricia, & maybe Xiuwen plus herself & I :) Yay!


It's hard to breathe when we're apart,
You're that sunshine in my heart,
I keep you here inside,
You've been everything to me,
You've been and always will be,
The apple of my eye,
And I know it's hard to believe,
You're still the biggest part of me,
All I'm living for,

Chorus
I still think about you,
I still dream about you,
I still want you and need you by my side,
I’'m still mad about you,
All I ever wanted was you,
You're still the one, your still the one,

If you love me, look into my eyes and say you do,
Iive been waiting all my life for someone just like you,
Baby after all we’ve been through,
Girl I'm still in love with you,
And I want you to know, I do, I do
- Brian McKnight's Still

Such a lovely heartwenching song :) And if my maid weren't here I wouldn't try so hard not to cry. Oh well, actually I'm feeling better. Yeh on the surface I am. Whatever Glyn. So pathetic. Sigh.

It's approaching 11 & they're not back! Ok whatever I'm gonna reply the comments now.

Jovenelim; Hey hons. Relax, tryna find the codes in your com? If not create a new templete or something? Chill allright honey. It's okay darling, we'll talk as soon as you come online allright? Huggies. I hope you find your codes soon!
Jerlene; Haha silly girl, I'm fine!. Miss your skins man!
Anita; Thanks a lot babe. I love you. I hope you're doing fine too. Hugs back!
Nique; Yeh enough of that yeh. Ay you said you'd still stand by me no matter what leh. Then now you like that. Seriously, don't do anything to her. I love you best friend, don't do anything to her. :( If you're hurting her it's gonna be equivalent to hurting me. I'm sure you won't want to hurt your ever so lovely bestfriend. If not I'm gonna take back my songs ok bitch. Hahaha. You're going night-cycling tonight & you're gonna pangseh me. Tsk!

I finally found my song. 4 In Love's 1001 Yuan Wang [:[:[: Damn old song but I lovelovelove this song. So smooth & all :) Jolin's Jia Zhuang is nice too. Um what else.. My Wish & What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts! Damn nice. Loveliest lyrics. Any songs by Dashboard Confessional & Ashley Parker Angel is nice too :)

Right they just came back & there's cake for me. No appetite. My maid made me Coffee mixed with Tea! I wonder who came up with that.



Suo hao yong yuan zai yi qi de, bu shi ma?
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